Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Leaving the old, welcoming the new.

2009 is knocking on the door, 2008 is packing its bag.

11 more hours.
Happy coming new year everyone.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Super duper sunday

My Sunday yesterday was rather tiring. Went out the whole day from morning till night but overall it was good.
The gig was fun and awesome, despite my sucky mc-ing. All the bands were great but too bad Compulsion To Kill cant make it though. And oh, Proletar from Indonesia kicked ass and they're surely yesterday's highlight. First I thought the guys from Proletar are gonna be those big guys that would look rough and tough but they turned out to be 3 normal sized fellas with the most adorable faces. hahaha
Many people showed up yesterday n I got to meet em' homies whom I don't get to see often.
Here's the fliers for the gig yesterday:

Right after the gig, Farah picked me up from razz and we rushed to upperstar for her birthday celebration.
All of us planned earlier that everyone would wear something fancy and girly-girly. haha
Me, who didn't get to go home to prepare had to change clothes in the car.
After about 15minutes, we arrived at the venue and I went out from the car all dressed up with my girlish blouse and heels. Good job changing in the car-with-limited-space Abigail.

After eating we surprised Farah with a cake and it was funny because Farah, my friend whom i known for years, the person that never fails to shut up turned all shy and silent when she heard the birthday song and saw d cake in front of her. She didn't even blow her candles properly.
Sot punya kau ni Farah, next time don't want to surprise u suda lorr, u cant handle it well. heh.
We went to the beach after dinner, and I don't know how but Farah broke her left heels. She was cursing the whole way and we even tried to break her right heels but it was rock-hard so we gave up.
And we ended up going home wet last night.

Pictures from yesterday:

Pictures are taken from different photographers/people.
Hope they don't mind. Sharing is caring ba. jahaha

Farah's birthday:

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Bernatal - natal here and there.

BBQ at Christine's, xmas celebration in Likas n Gaya Street.

Exchange presents. Some of it are quite interesting.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Sunday, December 21, 2008

On the road again.

I'm going to a place where a faraway friend of mine happens to be.
Perfect timing.
Keningau, here I come again.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Slow down now.

I'm putting this tired-self to sleep with lullaby that calmly chants in my head.

Sunday, December 14, 2008


Today was pretty shitty, everything went wrong.
Can people atleast try to see into the whole situation? I'm not sure whats the problem and the reason for all the anger. Please do tell, I want to know and I know I'll HAVE a good explanation.
Is it because i didn't tagged along?
Is it because i seem like a so called self-centered person?
Is it because you see me act as if i don't care just now?
You know me better than this.
You know that I'm not the kind of person that is self centered and selfish.
I know I'm not.
You don't know how i tried to help.
You know how that feels right? I know you do.
Like I said, I have a really good explanation for what I did today. That is, if you want to listen to it.

Yes, better friends you do have.
Ones who blew you guys off many times are way better I guess.
And I'm not comparing myself to people you know almost your whole life.
I'm not that irrational.
You're smart, you know who I'm talking about.
I myself had been mistreated in times, but I don't really bother as I tried to understand.
Bet you don't realize it.
Could you please for this one time put yourselves in my shoes?

Friday, December 12, 2008

Happy Abigail

- Exams over!
- Holidays here!
- Hangout with friends whom I haven't got to meet in a very long time.
- Kena blanja makannnn. Twice!
- Saw
snow. Twice!
- Bought a shirt
- Bought a bag

And why is she happy again? haha

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Pitter patter

Yesterday, 1st exam paper went well.
Wrote a lot, hope it wasn't all crap.

After that went shopping with Laura and Nana. Actually they did, I was just sorta looking around and I realize I need a few things.
I just don't really know what to buy first.
Guess not spending money like for a reaaaaallllllly long time just makes me so indecisive right now.
So yea, gonna go again this Thurs and I'm definitely gonna buy myself something. I hope.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Attack of the killer tomatoes

Ah no, ini attack of the feminine hormones.

I don't usually wear skirts. aiseh.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Can't deny these butterflies.

Like a blanket that warms and comforts when I'm cold.

I miss you dearly.

Like walking into a storm.

Those feelings, i pushed aside.
Its away now, but how long?
This mind of mine needs assurance.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


If i can be whatever i want.
If i can be whenever i want.
If i can predict what would happen the next second.
If i can see the future.
If i can go back in time.
If i can stop the time and be in a moment as long as i want.
If i can correct past mistakes.
If i can go into people's mind.
If i can be rich.
If i can be wiser.
if i can be more intelligent.
If i can not worry about things.
If people can be less hypocrite.
If people can be more thoughtful.
If people can be less complicated.
If people can have less problems.
If people can have less sufferings.
If people can have more faith.
If the present world can be a better place.
If only this list is going to end.
If only these ifs' wouldn't be if anymore

If only there wouldn't be so many if.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Slowly your fading

Burdened my head with all these thoughts.
No one will ever know how strong the heaviness.
How bad I feel, trust me it's not your fault.
As you might not realize, you might not see.
Don't you worry, the blame is never on you.
I never want to tell. I never want to complaint.
As I haven't been a great person the entire time too.
Don't want to invade the happiness of yours with my little sorrow.
Thanks for being there in my time in need. thanks for the kind words spoke. thanks for being the light when everything was dark. many things, thanks for everything.
All of it I would keep and surely cherish.
I'm thankful He sent a friend like you even though it may not be for eternity.

After all this wondering, I still wonder.
Is it because of you or is it solely me?

Sorry to be heavy my friend, but heavy is what I feel within.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Staying inside, it all goes by. all goes by.

Forgotten is how i feel.
Don't ask me why, who, how.
You just might be the one causing it.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Morning wonders

Adele and baileys.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

What was.

Promises broked.
Lies get told.
Hearts turned cold.
What was once a happy soul took a 360 degree change.
Being happy, a thing that used to be sooo easy was near to the stage of impossibility.

But days passes by,
I found sense in all this madness and found calm in all the chaos.
The knots are now untangle.
Being my old-self are now easier.
Joke about the whole thing now. looking back at things, it cracks me up.
Why did u let yourself be so vulnerable Abigail? well, that was then.
I'm now glad to be bouncing back! looking forward for all the fun stuffs that are being planned.
Cant wait to be in action! haha

Life is so much more than to be in grief about stuff that are just not worth it.

Friday, November 14, 2008


I'm sick of these constant mood swings.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


Cant get enough of it even after all these years.
It just gives me this warm n happy feeling.
Don't we all just love "The Nanny"


My 1st ever halloween went awesome.
Don't know what to become, at last i was a hippie.
Went to a club, eventhough d songs sucks but d fact that im there wit all my bestfrens was awesomely awesome.
Went to bismi after that, stayed n talked till 4am.
Was supposed to head home cuz theres a gig to attend to, but smua karas nda mau blk. bhaha
Without any plans or any idea where to go, we drove almost more than an hour out of town n we almost reached gunung emas.
Stop by the curves n went on top of a small hill, the view was breathtaking.
Arrived at lim's about 7am. slept for a while, went home, get prepared then head to donggongon.
After d gig, all of us was sooooooooo tired but did we go home n sleep? NOOOO
We hangout again that night in b. pabang (haha) and lucky cafe.

We just cant seem to get tired of ourselves don't we?

Monday, November 3, 2008

hahahaha. ur hillarious

I'm jealous? for what? a liar who's jobless n practically useless? do i need to write down all his flaws? bhaha
I couldn't care less.
I pity you though.
He's now doing u wrong.
I know n obviously your too blind to see.

Hope you realize sooner or later!
Good luck with that!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

kaningau yau!

I'm aware that i should update about d trip like right after i came home. But what the heck, better late than never people say. heh
So, d roadtrip to keningau was d best!
Supposed to b a 2d/1n stay ended up as 3d/2n stay.
Everything happened spontaneously. that's d best partttttt
eventhough there were some rocky part earlier on d trip, but everything end up lovelyyy~
or awesome i must say.