Thursday, February 26, 2009

Focused yet indesicive

Hello hello familiar place, been so long since my last visit.
As usual, I'm pretty caught up with some stuff in my life and I barely have sufficient me-time.
But I'm not complaining. I'm starting to like it. heh
Today was somewhat a good day to break free from my boring routine, become a sit-in guide for the most adorable family I've ever seen.
Ms Peng, from China came to Sabah with her most lovable parents. We couldn't stop talking from the moment we left the airport. What friendly people they are. Waiting for them about 30minutes in the arrival hall seems like the smallest matter, despite the fact that I hate hate hate waiting. Especially in situations where I have to stand and wait at the same time. I really hate waiting. Did I mentioned that I hate waiting? Grah
After their city tour, dinner and helping them to check into their hotel, it's time for me to head home.
Hope they would enjoy their one week stay here.

Okay back to the main point, have you ever had a clear long-term plan on what you ought to do with your life that eventually makes you feel so damn determined and focused to make it happen however whenever? I'm sure you do.
I am right now.
Strongly focused with will and determination as big as the ocean to accomplish all the things that I had planned, built and pictured in my head for myself.
But in that driven will, determination, focus and certainty, lies a big chunk of indecisiveness.
Somewhere in that big plan of mine, I still can't decide clearly about certain things. Things that could effect the whole so-called clear plan. Urgh.
I could throw my plans aside but NO, I wont. In my whole life, this is the time where I seriously want to dump my serious procrastinating problems away for good. Don't want this to be another plan undone.
I'm now starting the first step. Lets just hope everything goes well from there.

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